Wake up my Heart!

Yesterday as I was listening to K-Love, a woman was telling her story of attempted suicide and the healing that has taken place since. I usually don't listen to such stories, but I did. And at the end she said this: My season was not my story. I think I screamed a little when she said that and went "YES!" Then I repeated the phrase to myself until I got to a place I could write it down. Friends, your season is not your story, unless you a) want it to be or b) you get stuck. I think I need to focus on the getting stuck. Stuck is easy. We all too often go through something and then remember that something and then we can't STOP thinking about that something and we relive it over and over. I heard once that every time you repeat something that happened to you, in your own head, or others, it's like it's happening AGAIN. If you are a person who needs support and you tell 5 friends what you're going through, that's 5 times you have to relive your pain...

You guys. I am scared to write this post, which I envisioned writing in October. But it's been on my mind and last night I felt the Lord's prompting to WRITE IT NOW. I felt like a teenager because I verbally said. "Fine, but I can't right now (going to work), I will in the morning." So...here goes. I'm pretty sure you know I am going through a divorce. And what better time than that to offer marriage advice? (I gotta keep this light - so pardon my humor). The man I married wrote this in my engagement letter: "The best part about us is that as long as we are submitting to Jesus, the relationship won't be about us...it will be about him and how we can glorify him in serving each other." Enter the guilt and the water works. Friends, somewhere along the way we stopped submitting to Jesus in our marriage. Somehow He became not the focus. As happens in a lot of marriages - things change. Sometimes our focus was each other, sometimes my health, so...

Well, world, I may have a new life verse. And room on the back of my right arm to get it tattooed :). Anywho...it is Romans 15:13. "May the God of hope fill you with ALL joy and peace as you trust in him so that you may OVERFLOW with hope, by the power of the Holy Spirit." Emphasis placed on those two words is mine. Where this verse has been my whole life, I cannot tell you. Well, actually I can. It's in Romans Chapter 15. Ha. I'm snarky today! But that is one of the things that is amazing about our God - and why it is important to be IN the word at all times. At different times of your life, or heck, even different times of the day, different things will jump out at you. Or the same things will jump out at you, but in new ways. In this time of my life I am growing, growing, growing, in the Lord. And thanks to the words above, I am trying to be filled with ALL joy and peace and have myself OVERFLOW with hope. That image, of overflowing with hope is pretty amazin...