Wake up my Heart!

It has been a week! My goodness! Are any of you in that boat too? I've had bad news. And then more bad news. And doors closing - or attempting to do such. And confrontation and I HATE confrontation. I've had tears and unexpected heart ache. But it's Sunday. At church we sang "King of my Heart" and I am always amazed (and blessed) to find that no matter what is going on in my life I can sing the words "You are good, good...you're never gonna let me down," and know they are true. The words have always been true. They will always be true. God is good. And he has never let me down. People who look at our lives from a non-Christian lens tend to see all the yuck as evidence that God has indeed, let us down. Never. People have let us down and circumstances don't always turn out how you'd like, but God has never broken a promise to you. It would go against His character to do so. The "yuck" as I like to call it always serves a purpose...

I'm starting this post with a prayer. Not to say I don't typically start out that way, because I do, but this one I'm writing out. Mainly because this isn't a post I want to write. I'm being led to and that always hurts!! Heavenly Father God, please use the Holy Spirit to guide my words. You are so good and I know I can trust that when I genuinely make that request, you will answer. Let not my words, but yours come out of these fingers. Lord, I pray for the person who needs to see this message. Lord, help their heart be open to change and let their walk model Yours. Help them set down any gift that isn't from You. In Jesus' name I pray these things. Going on two years ago now, something that I didn't think was good was referenced to as a gift from God...I had no rebuttal or defense at the time, nor have I had one until yesterday, when out of the blue, it seemed an answer appeared that needed to be shared. A gift FROM God will never ask you to walk AW...

Let's tie my two worlds together through song :) My son LOVES pop music. Much to this mama's chagrin. In my car it's rarely on, but he's into AJR, so I'm into AJR! My favorite song of theirs is Netflix Trip with my favorite line of: Who am I to wonder who I am? If those don't read like Christian lyrics, I don't know what does!! Now, onto the current Hillsong song: Who You say I am I am chosen...not forsaken. I am who you say I am. TADA! They fit together so beautifully, it's almost like they need a blog post :) (insert cheese face) When I wonder in terms of who I am and I'm stuck in a "world" mindset, I feel all kinds of not so good things. I feel like a failure as a wife (like, hello - I'm not even in that role anymore because I was so bad at it!), not so awesome as a mom, I have wasted my education (as the woman with a master's degree has chosen to stay home and teach her kiddo- which horrifies a lot of people) and t...