Wake up my Heart!

Today I'm keeping it simple. Breakdown of Scripture. I love how the Word of God can be the best teacher there is...how something you've read over and over can be made new. How your eyes can be opened. How one word makes a difference.  Ephesians 5:8-10 reads: For you were once darkness but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord.  When I think about Ephesians 5, I think about wives submitting to their husbands and husbands loving their wives like Christ loved the church and all that jazz. I never noticed the first half! And then....God :)  You know how when you read, your brain sometimes inserts words to complete a sentence? Well, when I read those verses quickly, my brain always put in an extra word so I read, "Once you were IN darkness, but now you are IN light." NO. Once we WERE darkness. Not in it. We were IT. We were not jus...

This Christmas season I've been doing a lot of reminiscing on Christmas' past. Specifically last Christmas. Last Christmas, I was praying for a miracle of epic proportions. I didn't get it. And my heart of hearts knew I wouldn't. I remember being at Christmas Eve service with my then husband and my son. Standing in the middle of the two of them, singing Silent Night, with those little candles that drip wax all over...I remember thinking, "This...this is my miracle." And I cried. Just as I am crying now. That was the last time I was surrounded by those two Nathan's, singing to the Lord. I still have the one...and let me tell you, I treasure that precious boy that God gifted to me like you wouldn't believe. That moment was my miracle. And just like Mary, treasuring and pondering things in her heart, I've kept that memory in my heart and I don't foresee it going anywhere. And it doesn't have to. Because it was precious. And it was for Jesus....