Wake up my Heart!

I was driving on my usual route between Kaukauna and Green Bay when I had the most audible conversation with the Lord 9 days ago. Actually, it was probably more of a "talking to," as I didn't say a word. God took about 30 seconds and totally changed my heart. You need a little background for this to make sense. For a long time my life has been supremely affected by a person I've never met. A person I've been panicked about meeting. A person whom my son has met of late...and I haven't known what to do with that! On my little drive, God said this: Your son is going to like this person. He may even love this person some day. And that is okay. You are going to be okay with that. Because he will still love you. But more than that, because I love you. I love you enough. My love IS enough. You're ready to meet. Your heart can take it. Because I love you. Enough. I am Enough. Do you believe this? That end part was the kicker. My favorite "I AM" state...

Some posts are hard to write because I know they're going to break my heart. This is one such post. But...when the Spirit nudges, you listen because it won't give up sometimes until I'm glued in front of my keyboard! The past week has had me pondering several times about something I seldom think about: the sadness of God. I focus so much on the loving side of Him sometimes, that I forget that he MUST be affected by the workings of this world. In my own little bubble, here's how I know the Holy Spirit in me is sad. I cry. But rather than a face scrunching, ugly cry, tears simply stream from my eyes and I can't stop them even if I wanted to. I think they are a gift. A gift that breaks my heart, but a gift. Last weekend I had them. After watching the movie Coco, my lovely little man told me the point of the movie was bringing family together. And then, that poor soul started to cry and told me he missed his family. "I miss you and me and daddy together" wer...