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Wake up my heart.Again. (Psalm 57:1,7-8)

Scripture of the Day: Psalm 57

1 Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy!
I look to you for protection.
I will hide beneath the shadow of your wings
until the danger passes by.

7 My heart is confident in you, O God;
my heart is confident.
No wonder I can sing your praises!
8 Wake up, my heart!...

It has been several weeks since my last post, and for that I have to apologize. I am at a place where God has me confused and rather than try to write through that, I have just stopped trying altogether. That is not God's intention and so tonight I am going to work through the writer's block. Warning - it may be an interesting ride!

In a light bulb moment, this evening I was thinking in that place where many great ideas happen...the shower! I felt like God was telling me to go back to the beginning (meaning the blog). And so 30 minutes ago this is the conversation I feel I had with God in my head:

God: What is the name of this blog? 
Me: Wake up my heart devotions. 
God: And why is that the name of the blog?
Me: Because I wanted my heart to be awake and aware of You.
God: And is your heart awake?
Me: No 

And therein my friends, lies the problem. My heart is not awake. Somewhere between the hospital and the unanswered questions and the depression that typically follows a hospital stay for me, my heart has been asleep. I think God is trying to wake it up which leads me to several peace-bringing conclusions. 1) God hasn't left me...I have just been neglecting trying to find him. 2) God would like me, through the Holy Spirit, to remember that my heart of hearts is always confident in what God has in store for me. 3) Sometimes it is okay to "hide beneath the shadow of your [His] wings until the danger passes" - and right now that danger for me is uncertainty. This is what God-conversation has moved on to teach me about uncertainty:

God: What are you certain of?
Me: You
God: Why?
Me: Because through your word there is Truth (with a Capital T)

So we have come to light bulb number two of the day! With this seeming heart-sleepiness, I have neglected to look to God's word for inspiration, guidance, mercy and hope. I have also neglected praying for something that really needs praying about right now...me! I am much better at praying for others than myself, but God wants us to go to Him with ALL prayer requests. And on that note I close:

Heavenly Father God, please stay with me. Hide me in your wings. Protect me from any strongholds that are not related to you and help me look to your word for answers when I cannot find my own. Thank you for helping to wake up my heart. Now please help keep it awake. I ask this in Jesus' name. Amen.

If you wouldn't mind praying that prayer for me, I would greatly appreciate it :)








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