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Trust in the Lord...(Proverbs 3:5-6)

Last week a chapter of my life closed. It felt weirdly final as I left Barnes Jewish Hospital for the last time. Our current insurance won’t cover anything there…not to mention it is 8 hours away! To really put the stamp of closure on it, I used my last parking garage pass. As I walked to my car Proverbs 3:5-6 kept running through my head, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.”

I am at a funny stage in my life. I think I am actually healthy! Crohn’s Disease in in check. My uterus seems to be cooperating with our home remedy treatment. I am sleeping at night. I can eat.

But it is times like this that I am used to waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting to see blood when I go to the bathroom. Waiting for something unexpected to go wrong. Just waiting.

But God doesn’t want me to wait. He wants me to trust him and NOT attempt to glean what I can from my own understanding of my life. He wants to guide my path…I just have to let him.

When I look back with hindsight on my life thus far I can see how much more successful and happy I have been when I let Him and the Holy Spirit do the guiding. On my own I tend to make wrong turns and do a LOT of worrying. My own understanding is so limited it is really pointless to take time trying to figure it out J. I think it is enough for me to use God’s word and the guidance it provides.


The bottom line my heart is telling me is that it is okay for the Barnes chapter to close. God will take care of me during this next chapter…wherever it leads!

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