Hi friends! It's Thursday! Writing day :) I get so excited!
Earlier this week I got angry. Righteously angry. Mama bear came out like Jesus getting mad at the fig tree. However, I don't get angry. Really, ever. I get hurt and I internalize. So, it was a new emotion for me, especially because it overwhelmed me to the point of tears! The tears were actually what told me it was righteous anger by the way. It was the tears that also made me think, "Oh, crap, now I have to DO something about this." You see, I avoid confrontation like the plague.
But, right now I am in a fantastic place with the Lord and so I let the tears flow for about 1 minute. I also let my son see them. And he asked what was wrong and I said, I can't talk to you about it because I will "not let any unwholesome talk come out of my mouth, but only what is helpful for building others up, according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen," (Ephesians 4:29). That happened to be his AWANA verse for the evening by the way! Anything I said at that point would not have helped anyone (note, it was NOT my son who I angry with), so instead I prayed.
I prayed then, I prayed before bed, I prayed in the morning. It was at that time that I knew the Holy Spirit was encouraging me with Matthew 10:19, "When they deliver you over, do not be anxious how you are to speak or what you are to say, for what you are to say will be given to you in that hour." I was actually then able to go on with my day and I didn't worry myself sick!
3pm came and you know what, I had butterflies. But, I also had words! The words to say were given to me. And I had a conversation I was dreading. To that person, I don't think it felt like a confrontation, but to me it was. I stood up for a situation I needed to stand up for. I backed up my opinion. And I brought about a needed change.
I am so encouraged by this situation and I hope you find something in it for yourself. Righteous anger is a thing. There are some things in life, big or small, that need your voice rather than your silence. In those moments, pray. Trust that the Holy Spirit will give you words. And peace that transcends all understanding. Friends, if you know me, you know that 9 times out of 10 I would rather lay down and get stepped on than stand up. But, perhaps no more. God has made me strong. He has also already made you strong...or He's waiting for you to give Him the opportunity to do so. Trust Him. I promise that will work out :)
Earlier this week I got angry. Righteously angry. Mama bear came out like Jesus getting mad at the fig tree. However, I don't get angry. Really, ever. I get hurt and I internalize. So, it was a new emotion for me, especially because it overwhelmed me to the point of tears! The tears were actually what told me it was righteous anger by the way. It was the tears that also made me think, "Oh, crap, now I have to DO something about this." You see, I avoid confrontation like the plague.
But, right now I am in a fantastic place with the Lord and so I let the tears flow for about 1 minute. I also let my son see them. And he asked what was wrong and I said, I can't talk to you about it because I will "not let any unwholesome talk come out of my mouth, but only what is helpful for building others up, according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen," (Ephesians 4:29). That happened to be his AWANA verse for the evening by the way! Anything I said at that point would not have helped anyone (note, it was NOT my son who I angry with), so instead I prayed.
I prayed then, I prayed before bed, I prayed in the morning. It was at that time that I knew the Holy Spirit was encouraging me with Matthew 10:19, "When they deliver you over, do not be anxious how you are to speak or what you are to say, for what you are to say will be given to you in that hour." I was actually then able to go on with my day and I didn't worry myself sick!
3pm came and you know what, I had butterflies. But, I also had words! The words to say were given to me. And I had a conversation I was dreading. To that person, I don't think it felt like a confrontation, but to me it was. I stood up for a situation I needed to stand up for. I backed up my opinion. And I brought about a needed change.
I am so encouraged by this situation and I hope you find something in it for yourself. Righteous anger is a thing. There are some things in life, big or small, that need your voice rather than your silence. In those moments, pray. Trust that the Holy Spirit will give you words. And peace that transcends all understanding. Friends, if you know me, you know that 9 times out of 10 I would rather lay down and get stepped on than stand up. But, perhaps no more. God has made me strong. He has also already made you strong...or He's waiting for you to give Him the opportunity to do so. Trust Him. I promise that will work out :)
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