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Psalm 46 tells us: "Be still and know that I am God." However, I ran across this quote the other day on my lovely FB feed and it seemed to fall directly in my heart!

My last post was about opening my hand and giving God all the control. It was about me wanting to let go, so He can have it. Yet, in the days since writing that I have failed miserably!

There are days I can embrace this "new" life and have hope, happiness and even excitement about where God is taking me. On other days, I am sad about this new direction of life because I look at what it lacks. Very specifically the person that it lacks. Although present, the relationship moving forward between us is so different that I can't recognize either of us in it...

I haven't let go, I am holding on.

After all this. No matter how many times I feel like I've let go, or that I'm trusting in the Lord like I'm supposed to, or that I'm satisfied in him...I still can't let go and really mean it.

I think this is typical. There will be good days and bad. There will be spiritual highs and lows. There will be hope and some feelings of hopelessness. There will be smiles and tears. Joy and despair. There will be holding on and letting go. It is what I do with the "downs" that counts. Do I determinedly hold on to the bad/low when it comes; refusing to look up - or do I let go? This week has been a "holding on" week. The prayer of my heart is that I can open my hand and let go. And mean it.

Because my heart knows something more than I do. A simple song lyric from Zach Williams helps when it plays on repeat in my mind, "There ain't nothing going to steal my Joy." My Joy shouldn't change because HE doesn't change. So this morning, that is what needs to be important: God doesn't doesn't change; and I need to let go and let HIM be the God that he is. I need to let go and let Him be my Joy.

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  1. SaraMarch 29, 2017 at 6:08 AM

    I admire you so much Betsy! You're right I think this is a normal stage. You are being so focused on how to work through it that you will get there...because you know you can't do it alone. God loves you so very much!

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